its mothers day

Hi all..

Guess what.. today didnt really go as we planned.. It mother's day.. Everybody celebrates mothers everywhere.. And here I say, we did celebrate it.. But, we celebrate it without my mother..

Long story short, she stood us up.. Instead, she would rather go and have facial by herself than spend the day with us.. Her children and husband.. Her family.. This is such a dissappointment.. She was supposed to be there.. but, whats the point.. We did it to make her feel appreciated.. But how about us? Doesnt she appreciate us at all? We've put a lot of effort and time to get it altogether and tried so hard to keep it a secret from her.. We revealed the secret in the morning.. she said that she was so eager to join us (from what i heard) but, where was she? at the spa.. and there we were.. waiting for 2 hours for her.. We have feelings too y'know!! A mother indeed..

I came home, she didnt even say I'm sorry.. nothing.. havent even talked to me for the whole day.. was I the one who is avoiding her or was she the one who doesnt care? I still cant let this go.. and I dont think I can forgive her that easy..

back from MIA..

hello..

I know.. I know.. I have not been updating.. *guilty feeling* but, I will be active again from now on.. Anyway, I have a lot to share.. My schedule is really hectic and as well tight since last time..

Here's what's going on in my life right now..

MONDAY :
8.00 am - 5.00 pm : work
6.30* pm - 10.00* pm : netball training (time is subject to change)
9.00 pm - 10.00 pm : study

TUESDAY :
8.00 am - 5.00 pm : work
5.30 pm - 6.30 pm : softball (just started)
7.30 pm - 9.30 pm : tutoring

WEDNESDAY :
8.00 am - 5.00 pm : work
6.30* pm - 10.00* pm : netball training (time is subject to change)

THURSDAY :
8.00 am - 5.00 pm : work
6.00 pm - 7.00 pm : study

FRIDAY :
8.00 am - 5.00 pm : work
7.30 pm - 9.30 pm : tutoring

SATURDAY :
10.00 am - 11.00 am : driver's ed. (only temporary)
afternoon : movie outing

SUNDAY :
10.00 am - 11.00 am : driver's ed. (only temporary)

so basically, that's it.. what I have been doing for the past few weeks.. and owh.. I'll be joining PSK.. for netball.. :) anyway, will update again soon.. I'm actually doing my tutoring right now! LOL!

ciao.. =)

just an info

will be heading of to KK starting tomorrow.. departure time will be 6 am.. gawd! thats too early.. =__=

anyway, hopefully there is internet at the hotel.. will try to update on the trip there.. so yeah.. all the best! =)

smile =)

Smile, though your heart is aching

Smile, even though it's breaking

When there are clouds in the sky

You'll get by...

If you smile

With your pain and sorrow

Smile and maybe tomorrow

You'll find that life is still worthwhile

If you just...

Light up your face with gladness

Hide every trace of sadness

Although a tear may be ever so near

That's the time you must keep on trying

Smile, what's the use of crying

You'll find that life is still worthwhile

If you just...

Smile, though your heart is aching

Smile, even though it's breaking

When there are clouds in the sky

You'll get by...

If you smile

Through your fear and sorrow

Smile and maybe tomorrow

You'll find that life is still worthwhile

If you just smile...

That's the time you must keep on trying

Smile, what's the use of crying

You'll find that life is still worthwhile

If you just smile

another day of fishing

t'was slow today. although the breeze at Serasa Beach was mighty fine. the whole family was there fishing today. siuuk! Ngah Na's family, except for Uncle Haji, was still a beginner at casting the line.. it was so damn funny to see. hehe.

today, my family caught a total of four fishes. i still dont know the names of the fishes. =__=" and i didnt even bother asking them. haha! i caught one fish. yet again. mirul caught one, and azri caught two. he always wins. sasak jua ku tu! haha!

and and a terrible thing just happened tadi. i saw Jun there. t'was a terrible evening for me. cant believe i saw my ex of 1 year + there when i was there to relax. but yeah whatever. he's getting married isoon anyway. i dont wanna bother him lagi. but truthfully, i fell hard for him when we were toghether. when we were together, our relationship was the only one that i actually put a lot of effort to make it work. but when i said that i wanted a break, i just cant believe that he actually got engaged with someone else! sigh~ what to do. i guess im just his toy. and i realised that too late.

p.s : i need another cheer up moment with grul and adib.. ='(

t'was a great day to fish

like, OMG! i actually caught a fish today. hehe. me and my family went fishing today at Serasa Beach. it's my first catch of the year. Despite of the drama at home yesterday, i let go of the anger and just went fishing. surprisingly, fishing actually relaxes me. and i actually enjoyed myself.

there had been a struggle between me and the bait. i seriously had issues with it, since we're using LIVE bait! it was so slimy and they are always constantly moving. urgh! i hated them until at about 1 hour after few castings, i got the hang of handing them. THANK GOD!! but it did made my hand smell.. but whatever.

owh and also i realised today that Serasa Beach is in need of toilets!? i had to go by car from one end to another just to get to the toilet there. like come on, somebody do something about it. please. and also, the lights weren't even working.. =__=

but with all the happenings today, it was really a great day to fish. the whole family caught about 30 fishes today and mummy is serving it for dinner tonight. but i only managed to catch one. its better than no catch at all right? hehe.. it was really worth the wait. sorry for no pictures. was having too much fun to take any photos just now. maybe next time =)

yet another return

hello.. the end of this year really has its ups and downs.. but i sure do can point out the best days i've had this month and also the passing year.. since its almost new year, i do have a resolution in mind.

i am what i am. i cannot change that. what i've learnt is to never seek love from others, but seek acceptance. i've learnt that the hard way this year. =) and i'll never make the same mistake over and over again. thanks dear friends, you are the best i've had. that also points out to my girly cuzzies.. i LOVE kamu! xD

i've met a few interesting people this year. and thanks to my best friend, Adib Matzidi, you've opened my eyes to a whole new meaning in life. and made me realise what i truly yearn for in life. to Amal Nabillah Affendy, i miss you babe, hope you're well in kent. hope to see you next year. and bet on it, i'll take you for ambuyat. i promise you that. i owe you guys so much! for Nazirol Haiyat, you are what i needed. a breath of fresh air, thanks for introducing me to your girly friends. =) and thanks to Adib, for introducing him to me. Grul, kau lah abg yg ku sayang berabis! you so get me, even if we've only just met.. i love and sayang kamu tiga! xD

best ever memory this year would have to be prom and the camp trip. i've finally let go and enjoyed the whole time. no complaints. it went just perfect. xD but the worst, there's a lot of 'em i tell you. 1st, during A level exam, i got admitted due to gastric, constipation and stress. then, just this month, my parents cant stop nagging about why they want me at home all the time. im grounded during my holiday break. how fucked up is that? urgh. and whats more, i had an endoscopy. it was the longest 3 min ever. *feels like throwing up just thinking about it*

well, i guess that pretty much sums out the activities, the ups and downs i've had this year. i cant wait what 2010 will bring me. i just hope it'll be better next year. i'll keep on praying for that. =)